Give us this day our daily bread. That's me. always hungry!
born and raised a heathen
That’s right. Despite who I am now, I have a past, just like everyone else. The devil tried to convince me I was an accident. My raising isn’t prototypical but yet not super special. It isn’t worse than others or better. I never knew my biological father and as my mother was trying to get her career together, I was left to be raised by grandparents to old to truly care anymore, since I was one of there very last grandchildren. I literally could truly own and claim, “I was left unsupervised.” Which quickly led trying to fit in and find approval in the world. After starting to smoke weed at 13, it was downhill fast and soon found myself facing 22 months in TYC. After I got out, life only got more hardcore because I had to own my new identity as a criminal and things only went from bad to worse in quick succession.
After 15 years of a life of worldliness, heathenism, materialism and trying not to lose my head in the downward spiral, the prayers of people I didn’t even know, came into effect. My mother had petitioned people at her church to lift me up before the devil completed his task of trying to destroy my life and my destiny. The rest is His-story.
The first part of my life isn’t something I’m proud of, but I’ve learned that it isn’t worth it to whitewash it. Our life is build on moments that make us who we are and it is tragic for those that have to pretend is isn’t there and didn’t happen. Authenticity requires vulnerability and a lack of transparency builds distrust. True freedom in Christ is to lay it all on the altar and let the Lord burn off the dross to allow your God given light to shine. All things work out for the good of those that love Him. Everything is made for His use and His glory, including all of our past, hurts, wounds, and offenses. It is by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony in which our limp is used to heal others hurts.
“fresh off the boat on the island of christianity, I learned to play the game. until I met a real man of god that called me fraud, thats when the rules & the game changed :)”
What Makes My Work Different?
I speak to those who are burned out on shallow self-help and surface-level Christianity. My approach to personal growth is deeply Christ-centered, but not in the polished, feel-good way you often hear. I’ve wrestled with the hard truths of human nature—and the deeper grace of God. Here’s what I’ve come to believe:
Struggle is not the enemy—it’s part of the human condition. Pain isn’t proof that God has abandoned us; it’s often the place where He does His deepest work. The goal isn’t to escape suffering, but to find meaning in it, through Him.
Positive thinking won’t save us. What we need isn’t more motivational fluff—it’s redemption. Negative emotions can be sacred ground. They expose where we need healing, surrender, and sometimes repentance.
We’re not just flawed—we’re fallen. And pretending otherwise keeps us from the mercy we most need. Real growth begins when we stop trying to be enough on our own and start relying on the One who is.
Knowing “who we are” is overrated. Clinging to identity apart from Christ only leads to pride or despair. It’s better to stay moldable in His hands—open to transformation, led by grace, grounded in truth.
True change is not comfortable, convenient, or cute. The cross wasn’t either. Real discipleship costs something. But it’s in that dying to self that real life begins.
This message has resonated with people who are done with performance-driven faith and tired clichés. It’s for those hungry for something real—something rooted in the Gospel, that confronts the depth of the problem and offers the only true cure: Christ, the ONLY way, the TRUTH and the LIFE.
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